When Words Fail

This is the hardest part of leading a ministry and writing so regularly for a blog that is the major part of that ministry.

No words. I literally sit and try to write something that will touch the hearts of women (some men too) and nothing flows out of me. I really hate not having any words to share. Seriously! Words are my life. I usually have no trouble with them just falling from my head, but they just aren’t there.

It could be because life has had some challenges lately.  My grandfather had a major stroke not a week ago and it has left us all feeling like loss is right there. (He is doing better and in an acute care program, but he will never be the same. Please pray for him. His name is Michael.) We also are trying to be there for my grandmother as her life love is facing so many life altering changes and these affect her as well.

Then to top the cake we were informed that my estranged grandmother (the same side of the family) was in congestive heart failure and admitted to the hospital where she lives. (She has since been moved to CU and has mini strokes.) Ya’all, I’m not entirely sure that this long lost grandmother is a Christian.  She had decided to cease all contact with our family a very long time ago. To my knowledge she doesn’t even know that I have four beautiful children and live in this great state of Alaska.

So, you see, I have had this flurry of emotion and thoughts happening, but the words still fail to originate.  How I hate this feeling.   I suppose there are times where God just wants us to be quiet and just really rely on him in these times.  We don’t have to have words all the time.  I am a firm believer, and actually prayed this for a friend today, that even the mention of his name, JESUS, is enough for him to know exactly what is on your heart. But He also longs to hear our cries to him.  They are personal. Raw. Real.

Friends, today I just encourage you to sit in the stillness of His goodness because He has complete control and is the ultimate healer of all things; emotions, physical needs, heart break, soul savings, etc.  He is still there listening to your soul search for him in more ways that we will ever know.

Lord, I just want to say your name, JESUS.  My heart is full and my words can’t form to say what is in my heart and on my mind.  There are numb days that I just have nothing.  Fill in those nothing days with your presence and make me whole. In Your precious name, amen.

Tara DeMaris

Tara, graduate of Crown College, is the mother to four beautiful children.  Together, Tara and her husband, David, and their family make their home in North Pole, Alaska.  Tara is passionate about reaching the hearts of women and young ladies.  She loves to write and teach God's Word.  God put a desire in Tara's heart over seven years ago to start a ministry that reached women and today she has founded Titus II Woman Ministry.  God is showing her miracles and his hand at work every day.

Tara, graduate of Crown College, is the mother to four beautiful children. Together, Tara and her husband, David, and their family make their home in North Pole, Alaska. Tara is passionate about reaching the hearts of women and young ladies. She loves to write and teach God’s Word. God put a desire in Tara’s heart over seven years ago to start a ministry that reached women and today she has founded Titus II Woman Ministry. God is showing her miracles and his hand at work every day.

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