Late last winter my husband and I learned of a job in a perfect location that we believed would be perfect for our family.
We fasted and we prayed about whether we should step out of our comfort zone and apply for this job or not. It was so scary for us. The idea of starting over again terrified us, so we prayed again and again. With humble hearts we asked the Lord “Is this for us? Is this how we can be an instrument of the Lord? Is this the path you want us to walk? Are we supposed to move our children away from their home? Away from their friends? Are we supposed to embark on something that is unfamiliar to us?” The answer we both got was “We shall see”. We felt that was such a weird answer, but in our hearts we felt that we should go ahead and apply for the job. So we did and then we waited. And we waited. And we waited some more. The more we waited the more we hungered for the job; the job we would be perfect for. We made dreams about what we would do when we got this new position; in this new place that is perfect. And then we waited more. I began to get nervous about this decision. Fear and doubt began to sink in. I began to get upset and question our prayers and our intent. I began to feel as though our decision to try something new and reach out of our comfort zone and apply for something newer and bigger was just a mistake and a pipe dream that was contrived of man and not based on Godly principles. And so we decided to move on. Well my husband moved on anyways. Me? Not so much. I was hurt for no reason, but still I felt betrayed by my heart and my prayers. I turned in prayer again to my Father in Heaven. I asked for Forgiveness. I had let my desires guide my thoughts. It’s a natural, human thing to do. It happens. We all ask for things we really desire. But somehow I really thought that this New Job and New Home and New Life was exactly was God wanted for me and my family. I got my hopes and heart up about it and I needed to ask forgiveness for putting my wants and my desires before those of others and really trying to decide what God wanted most for me. And so like I always do after my prayers, I read my Scriptures. There was my answer. Romans 8:24-25, “(24) for we are saved by hope; but hope that is seen is not hope: for what a man seeth, why doth he yet hope for? (25) But if we hope for that we see not, then do we with patience wait for it.”
Was I just not patient? Could it be something as simple as that? Never once did I think about waiting with patience. We had prayed about the job and felt peace and decided to go full force ahead and because of that I assumed that everything would just be so fast and swift. You know… because when God decides to do something, he does it, right? After all, He made the universe in SIX days, right? Boy was I wrong. The fruits of the spirit are love, joy, peace, longsuffering, gentleness, goodness, faithfulness, meekness, and temperance. We are supposed to cultivate these qualities in our hearts and minds and actions. In case you didn’t already know, long suffering and patience go hand in hand. And this is a quality that I really do not have even a pinch of. So I tried the whole patience thing. I had decided that with faith I would have patience and if it were the right time for us to move on and start another adventure it would happen-eventually. I am not a patient person! It is a quality that I struggle with every day with my children, and the laundry, and the mail man and everything, but every day I prayed for the strength to wait with patience about this job. My husband, on the other hand, was calm and cool and collected;he waited patiently. THREE months later, after we had submitted the application, we received a phone call. They wanted to interview my husband. It went really well. And then-we waited! And So I continued with patience. I prayed daily for patience. And months later we were called for a second interview. As I prayed daily for patience my daily scripture reading became about patience and cultivating this lovely Christ-like quality. I learned that it is a quality that you need to care for and nurture like it is a precious seed. It needs to be watered and weeded every day or it will be taken over by the weeds of doubt and fear and every single bad character quality that you could think of.
We are still waiting to hear if we have a New Job in a New Place, but I have since learned through this journey, what My Heavenly Father wanted most for me was to learn Patience. Patience in all things is a quality that is hard to come by. This whole process started nearly eight months ago and throughout most of it I have been a scared, impatient worrywart. Now, I am transforming into a patient and graceful worrywort. Through praying daily for patience and guidance through the Scriptures I have come to understand the words of Romans 8:24-25 to mean that hoping for something that is not of the world will gain you not only a mansion in Heaven but a legacy here on earth that can only be obtained with grace and patience, and that hoping for something earthly will leave you doing just that… hoping.
I would like to share with you a few of the verses that have brought me great comfort in hopes that it will help you to cultivate patience and longsuffering in your own life.
Hebrews 6:12 “That ye be not slothful, but followers of them who through faith and patience inherit the promises.”
Colossians 1:11 “ Strengthened with all might, according to his glorious power, unto all patience and longsuffering with joyfulness;”
Romans 5:3 “ And not only so, but we glory in tribulations also: knowing that tribulation worketh patience;”
Romans 5:4 “And patience, experience; and experience, hope:”
Luke 21:19 “In your patience possess ye your souls.”
James 1:4 “ But let patience have her perfect work, that ye may be perfect and entire, wanting nothing.”
Hebrews 10:36 “For ye have need of patience, that, after ye have done the will of God, ye might receive the promise.”
Romans 15:4 “For whatsoever things were written aforetime were written for our learning, that we through patience and comfort of the scriptures might have hope”
Father in Heaven, please help each of these sweet sisters to develop Christ like qualities. Help them to see through the weeds of fear and doubt and help them to plant seeds of patience and love and kindness and every other Christ like quality. Bless them with the strength to carry through each day with grace and your love. And I say this humbly in the name of thy son, Jesus Christ. Amen.